I know he wasn't. It's why we're even having this conversation. [Yup, it's all Kirk's fault.] But if he applied a bit of forethought and had just asked about her rather than assuming, this might have been circumvented. [Ultimately, the brunt of this is on Fenris and not Kirk, but Riona finds it frustrating that the other man didn't at least make sure. She finds it irresponsible and, frankly, a bit self-centered. But it doesn't matter much now.
She pinches the bridge of her nose.]
You know, I'm not sure if you're taking my words literally or not. [After the threesome incident, she's not assuming either way.] If you are, then of course there won't be any skipping. Kirk doesn't strike me as the type. [Her throat tightens as she considers the more likely option.] But if you aren't... you mean to say you don't think Kirk will want to be with you after this?
[While she hopes Kirk won't exactly feel great about it when he learns Marian didn't know, and while she remembers him saying he would have to have another talk with Fenris if she didn't, she never got the impression from him that it'd be a dealbreaker. Just an issue they'd need to hash out.]
Not more disappointed, no. It just confirms that there's a good person in there, even if he did do a shitty thing. I still kind of want to smack you, but... well, it wouldn't do much good. I'll leave that for Marian, if she so chooses.
[Irresponsible and self-centred is what Kirk does best, though. ]
I did not give him reason to. He put his trust in me, and I used that against him. I was a coward.
[She's asking the guy with minus-zero self esteem if he thinks someone else can see past this very horrible thing, he's done. He knows, deep down, it's not what Kirk would do, but there it is all the same. ]
I don't aim to second guess anything any more. I know what the sensible option would be, for him.
[He's not convinced on the good person thing, but he wasn't convinced on that long before any of this happened. ]
She has every right to. I will speak with her now.
["I didn't feel obliged because I trust him." Those words are gonna come back to haunt Kirk soon. She just hopes he can understand where Fenris was coming from.]
Fenris...
[No, she needs to let him be, for now. There are too many emotions and loose ends hanging out to really properly talk about anything. This is all reactive and angry. Fenris has to do what needs to be done, and she needs to let him do it.]
All right. You do that. I... I need to step back right now anyway. Not tonight, and maybe not even tomorrow, but past that, if you need to talk, you know where to find me.
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She pinches the bridge of her nose.]
You know, I'm not sure if you're taking my words literally or not. [After the threesome incident, she's not assuming either way.] If you are, then of course there won't be any skipping. Kirk doesn't strike me as the type. [Her throat tightens as she considers the more likely option.] But if you aren't... you mean to say you don't think Kirk will want to be with you after this?
[While she hopes Kirk won't exactly feel great about it when he learns Marian didn't know, and while she remembers him saying he would have to have another talk with Fenris if she didn't, she never got the impression from him that it'd be a dealbreaker. Just an issue they'd need to hash out.]
Not more disappointed, no. It just confirms that there's a good person in there, even if he did do a shitty thing. I still kind of want to smack you, but... well, it wouldn't do much good. I'll leave that for Marian, if she so chooses.
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I did not give him reason to. He put his trust in me, and I used that against him. I was a coward.
[She's asking the guy with minus-zero self esteem if he thinks someone else can see past this very horrible thing, he's done. He knows, deep down, it's not what Kirk would do, but there it is all the same. ]
I don't aim to second guess anything any more. I know what the sensible option would be, for him.
[He's not convinced on the good person thing, but he wasn't convinced on that long before any of this happened. ]
She has every right to. I will speak with her now.
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Fenris...
[No, she needs to let him be, for now. There are too many emotions and loose ends hanging out to really properly talk about anything. This is all reactive and angry. Fenris has to do what needs to be done, and she needs to let him do it.]
All right. You do that. I... I need to step back right now anyway. Not tonight, and maybe not even tomorrow, but past that, if you need to talk, you know where to find me.
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...I will bear that in mind. Thank you.
[He means that. He doesn't understand why she is still offering a listening ear- but he very much appreciates it anyway.]
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Until then.
[With that, she hangs up. Now excuse her while she goes and cries because holy shit.]
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