[Irresponsible and self-centred is what Kirk does best, though. ]
I did not give him reason to. He put his trust in me, and I used that against him. I was a coward.
[She's asking the guy with minus-zero self esteem if he thinks someone else can see past this very horrible thing, he's done. He knows, deep down, it's not what Kirk would do, but there it is all the same. ]
I don't aim to second guess anything any more. I know what the sensible option would be, for him.
[He's not convinced on the good person thing, but he wasn't convinced on that long before any of this happened. ]
She has every right to. I will speak with her now.
["I didn't feel obliged because I trust him." Those words are gonna come back to haunt Kirk soon. She just hopes he can understand where Fenris was coming from.]
Fenris...
[No, she needs to let him be, for now. There are too many emotions and loose ends hanging out to really properly talk about anything. This is all reactive and angry. Fenris has to do what needs to be done, and she needs to let him do it.]
All right. You do that. I... I need to step back right now anyway. Not tonight, and maybe not even tomorrow, but past that, if you need to talk, you know where to find me.
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I did not give him reason to. He put his trust in me, and I used that against him. I was a coward.
[She's asking the guy with minus-zero self esteem if he thinks someone else can see past this very horrible thing, he's done. He knows, deep down, it's not what Kirk would do, but there it is all the same. ]
I don't aim to second guess anything any more. I know what the sensible option would be, for him.
[He's not convinced on the good person thing, but he wasn't convinced on that long before any of this happened. ]
She has every right to. I will speak with her now.
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Fenris...
[No, she needs to let him be, for now. There are too many emotions and loose ends hanging out to really properly talk about anything. This is all reactive and angry. Fenris has to do what needs to be done, and she needs to let him do it.]
All right. You do that. I... I need to step back right now anyway. Not tonight, and maybe not even tomorrow, but past that, if you need to talk, you know where to find me.
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...I will bear that in mind. Thank you.
[He means that. He doesn't understand why she is still offering a listening ear- but he very much appreciates it anyway.]
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Until then.
[With that, she hangs up. Now excuse her while she goes and cries because holy shit.]
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