IC CONTACT - DRIFT FLEET

[wolfuncaged]

FROM: SUBJECT: KIRK Fenris? It's me. Can I come in? MARIAN/CLOUD Meanacing DORIAN Well, I wasn't certain what to expect... JUSTICE You seem to have escaped the planet unharmed. RIONA You know, when someone is three sheets to the wind and suggests a threesome... RIONA Fenris! It feels like ages since we've spoken. KIRK ACTION MARIAN Fenriiiiis ADALWOLFE please tell me you didn't sleep with Isabela too ANDERS :3 MARIAN This will do KIRK Can we talk? MARIAN You're a mess, Marian. ADALWOLFE Special delivery! ANDERS Maybe it will help with your face. HAWKE Fenris? You there? VARRIC Don't-- don't do anything. OCTAVIA Hey, Fenris ELIZE Fenris? JOVE ACTION STEVEN fenrisssssssssssssssssssssssss ROBIN Listen, Fenris, I know you don't give a shit about me, but-- FELIX Fenris, I apologize for contacting you in this way, but I was wondering... JOVE SO ABOUT COLE JOVE STRAWBERRIES

TO: SUBJECT: KIRK About Anders KIRK Kirk wakes KIRK Kirk? Can we speak? MARIAN Where are you? We need to speak. KIRK You wish to speak HAWKE We need to speak VARRIC Varric. Varric. Varric wake up. JOVE Jove. May I have a moment of your time? JOVE Can we speak? Are you busy? HAWKE Is there anywhere on this blighted hole we can find any decent alcohol? JOVE I was spiteful and angry to you, and I owe you an apology. HAWKE Hawke. Did you know the Inquisition have a demon? VARRIC There is something I need to tell you.

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[universal_charm]

_{[ He bit his lip around a little smile at that, glancing up at Fenris and huffing a laugh beneath his breath. ]}

That would be nice thank you.

_{[ He sobered as he went back to his thoughts on the recent argument, sipping his drink. ]}

At first it was about that, but then it went around to how she left in the middle of the night to go to the Goldstone, about how I couldn’t trust her the same way I had before because of it.

[wolfuncaged]

[He takes a pointed sip of his own drink- mostly to show that he's not abandoning it completely. He's surprised that he doesn't mind it, though it's certainly not wine (he'll be an expensive date forever, sorry, Kirk). He makes an appreciative noise anyway, to show it passed muster, before placing it on his bedside table.

He shifts on the bed, to sit behind Kirk, hands working the other man's shoulders. As usual, he's rough and without finesse, but it should at least work some of that tension out as he listens. ]

Oh. So because she left to go to Mon-El. [He's quiet for a moment, stilling in his movements, before starting up again. ] I...honestly could not blame her for her actions. If you and I were on different ships, I would have done the same in a heartbeat.

[universal_charm]

_{[ He rubbed at his face, sighing into his hands. The trouble was he couldn’t exactly blame her either. He understood why she went - of course he would want to check on his loved ones too. Perhaps the real issue was how she has done it, sneaking away from them. ]}

I’m not saying I don’t understand her feelings and why she went. But we were in a crisis situation. It ended up working out, but what if we had needed her? What if she had died out in the forest and none of us knew before it was to late because she stole away while we weren’t looking?

_{[ He straightened himself and pushed back in Fenris’ hands. ]}

How do I know she won’t do it again? How can I count on her if we face something similar ever again?

[wolfuncaged]

True, she should have told us what she was doing. Perhaps she feared we would stop her? She didn't have her powers, it would not have been difficult to detain her. I suppose she thought it better to beg forgiveness than ask permission.

[He continues to work Kirk's muscles, trying to ease the pressure in them. ]

What did she have to say about that? Can she assure you of such things? If not...perhaps she will always be a flight risk- while they are split between two ships.

[universal_charm]

Her response was to declare I never trusted her in the first place. That I don’t treat her as an equal.

_{[ He paused. ]}

Perhaps there is some truth in that. I won’t deny it can happen and she obviously felt that way. But it wasn’t about trusting her to do her job, it was about trusting her to stay with the crew - the team - in a crisis and being able to count on having her. Powers or no powers.

And that’s just it. How can I look at her and say to myself - Kara has our backs, when we’re in battle? How do I know she won’t abandon us when we might need her most?

_{[ His weight made the bed creak as he leaned back and into Fenris’ chest. ]}

I’ve never had reason to question that before, and I do now, and I hate it.

[wolfuncaged]

I don't know, you seem to have a lot of trust in the crew. You...have a tendency to occasionally forget we are not the crew of the Enterprise - but I have never felt that you did not trust me, and I am well aware I have given you plenty of reasons to feel otherwise.

[If any member of the Tourist is likely to go rogue and fuck things up for everyone, it's Fenris. Even he can admit to that. He sighs, resting his head against Kirk's breathing in the scent of his hair. One arm shifts to wrap around his chest- not a full hug but something. ]

I wish I could give you the answer you need. Ultimately, that will have to be her choice. If she wishes to be part of the crew or not. I would miss her a lot, but if it would be easier for her to not have her heart torn in two places, it would be kinder to go to him. Or him to here...I suppose.

[He's not thrilled with the idea. He's never been a fan of Mon-El's. ]

[universal_charm]

_{[ He closed his eyes, thankful Fenris was allowing him this moment of physical comfort. He knew it was not the easiest thing for him, and it meant a lot that he did it. He turned his head, brushing his nose along the angle of the elf’s cheek, reaching up to run his hands through silver hair. ]}

I told her as much. I don’t want her to go. But I can’t make that decision for her. Like you said, this isn’t the Enteprrise.

_{[ Lips brushed across Fenris’ skin, a gentle touch at the corner of his lips. He could smell the brandy on them from that one sip, faint and warm. ]}

[wolfuncaged]

[Fenris let out a deep, rumbling hum at the touch, arm tightening around his lover gently, hoping the closeness gave him some comfort. ]

She has to be allowed to choose. It seems we are having a lot of bad luck with that, lately. I...am not sure if Pavel will return to us for good, either.

[universal_charm]

I think he will. He just... needs time. He has been sheltered from a lot of this, and before the incident with the corpses he killed someone for the first time to defend me. It’s a lot for him, and he needs to handle it in his own time in his own way.

Though that is something I should do soon - talk to him.

_{[ He ducked his head in, nuzzling at him and then switching to nibble at his lips. ]}

Anything you want to get off your chest?

[wolfuncaged]

[There was plenty ON his chest. His argument with Pavel was still very fresh in his mind. The words had cut deep, and the fact Pavel thought him and his fellow Thedosians as brutal and barbaric- without any real understanding of the world they came from did not settle well with him.

He exhales, a thumb brushing the line of Kirk's jaw- eyes closing for a moment because that nibbling is very distracting.]

No. I do not wish to put you in an uncomfortable position between us. I would not do that to you.

[universal_charm]

_{[ He wanted to protest for a moment, but what would be gained by pushing his nose into it? He made a soft sound touched by a frown, thumb brushing along the edge of Fenris’ ear. ]}

All right, but if you want to talk about it, we can. Just know that, all right?

_{[ His teeth worked along Fenris’ jaw, occasionally bumping him with his nose. ]}

[wolfuncaged]

[Nothing much at all. And Fenris really didn't want to put Kirk in a place where he felt his loyalties were divided. He tilts his head, closing his eyes and letting out a low hum at the treatment. That, at least, was pleasant.]

I know, thank you. It will solve itself in time, or it won't. We will have to see.

[universal_charm]

_{[ He nodded, accepting that, and honestly a little grateful to not have to talk about it. He was worried, but he just didn’t think he could handle more emotional land mines today. He turned his head, gaze falling on the book Fenris had left open when he’d obviously gotten up to answer the door. He patted this thigh for his attention. ]}

What book were you reading? Anything interesting?

[wolfuncaged]

Oh.

[He smiles, turning to pick it up. ]

It is one of the books in the library, on Earth legends. I was curious when you told me about the end of the world wolf. They are...actually interesting reads.

[universal_charm]

Oh yes, anything about mythology is pretty fascinating. Norse mythology in particular has a lot of good ones as I recall. Eastern mythology is quite rich as well, especially Chinese, Japanese, and Hindu.

_{[ He made himself comfortable against Fenris, taking as much time as the other would let him to just lean back and be physically against him. ]}

What do you think of your namesake?

[wolfuncaged]

There is such a wide variety. Sometimes I forget how large and diverse Earth is.

[After all, when he was on Earth, it was a much different place- ravaged by war with only tiny pockets of humanity still surviving outside of the mass of United Earth. He takes his time, hesitating, before moving to rest against him. ]

Well. It's a giant wolf of total destruction. It's...interesting at least.

[universal_charm]

Hah, have you gotten to the part about the giant serpent encircling the world? That one always got me. Or I think there's something about a holy squirrel that ferries messages along the nine realms and the tree Yggdrasil.

_{[ He laughed, clearly enjoying the subject. He was not overly versed, but he knew some basics. He did read things other than science and history books now and then. ]}

[wolfuncaged]

Oh, no, I haven't. [He picks the book up, flicking through the pages a little, brow furrowed.
]

I do not understand how a serpent can encircle the world. Or... well a holy squirrel sounds very Orleasian.

[universal_charm]

Well, you have to remember, when these were written, the world was much smaller to them. Not as we know it. The seas were vast, deep, unexplored and misunderstood. Weather was misunderstood. Wolves were a very real and powerful threat. It's easy to see how they came up with these myths, though they're just entertainment now.

The squirrel I can't really explain though.

[wolfuncaged]

Yes, our own mythologies can occasionally be like that. It did not have any serpents.

...Though some do have dragons, so I suppose that close enough.

[Dragons are like snakes, right? Sure. He smiles, settling a little closer to Kirk, relaxing against him.]

Still, it has been an interesting read.

[universal_charm]

Oh, we have plenty of those in Earth myth too. If you like dragon myths, you will love the Eastern cultures. Or, if you prefer things like hunting them, I suggest Medieval Europe. There are even some I think would count as dragons from the South American cultures of the Mayans and at the Aztecs.

_{[ Excited about this subject? Clearly. But he always was when he got a chance to learn new things, and many times understanding a culture came down to understanding their religious beliefs too. ]}

What's been your favorite part?

[wolfuncaged]

[A laugh bubbles out of Fenris' chest- honestly charmed. ]

You really do love this kind of thing, don't you? It's...nice to see you being so excited about something.

[He closes the book, tapping it against his lip in thought. ]

Eurydice. That was a pleasant story. Tragic, but still a good tale.

[universal_charm]

Do I not seem excited about other things?

_{[ He blinked, but he obviously didn't take it as an insult. But god did he love that laugh. A real laugh out of Fenris. He almost closed his eyes just so he could listen harder to it, memorize it - a little gem suddenly dropped in his lap. He watched Fenris tap his lip, taking his head when he finished and kissing the tip of the finger that had just been against his lip. ]}

Want to read it to me?

[wolfuncaged]

You do, but this is different. It's...charming.

[He watches Kirk's reaction, before glancing down to his book. ]

...I could certainly do that.

[An action that would have been a faraway dream a few years ago. Reading. ]

[universal_charm]

_{[ Kirk's smile was bright, though small. He leaned up to kiss the corner of Fenris' mouth again, shifting to the edge of the bed to work off his shoes and socks, making himself comfortable. He moved to lay out, patting the space beside him. ]}