IC CONTACT - DRIFT FLEET

[wolfuncaged]

FROM: SUBJECT: KIRK Fenris? It's me. Can I come in? MARIAN/CLOUD Meanacing DORIAN Well, I wasn't certain what to expect... JUSTICE You seem to have escaped the planet unharmed. RIONA You know, when someone is three sheets to the wind and suggests a threesome... RIONA Fenris! It feels like ages since we've spoken. KIRK ACTION MARIAN Fenriiiiis ADALWOLFE please tell me you didn't sleep with Isabela too ANDERS :3 MARIAN This will do KIRK Can we talk? MARIAN You're a mess, Marian. ADALWOLFE Special delivery! ANDERS Maybe it will help with your face. HAWKE Fenris? You there? VARRIC Don't-- don't do anything. OCTAVIA Hey, Fenris ELIZE Fenris? JOVE ACTION STEVEN fenrisssssssssssssssssssssssss ROBIN Listen, Fenris, I know you don't give a shit about me, but-- FELIX Fenris, I apologize for contacting you in this way, but I was wondering... JOVE SO ABOUT COLE JOVE STRAWBERRIES

TO: SUBJECT: KIRK About Anders KIRK Kirk wakes KIRK Kirk? Can we speak? MARIAN Where are you? We need to speak. KIRK You wish to speak HAWKE We need to speak VARRIC Varric. Varric. Varric wake up. JOVE Jove. May I have a moment of your time? JOVE Can we speak? Are you busy? HAWKE Is there anywhere on this blighted hole we can find any decent alcohol? JOVE I was spiteful and angry to you, and I owe you an apology. HAWKE Hawke. Did you know the Inquisition have a demon? VARRIC There is something I need to tell you.

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[wolfuncaged]

[Fenris knew, eventually, a reckoning would happen. That he would need to answer for the choices he's made. He didn't expect it so soon, but life is funny like that.

Still, his expression remains steady, but for an arched eyebrow at her comment. ]

Well. Lucky for you, we did not have one.

[bryces_pup]

So I gathered. That didn't stop Kirk from teasing me about suggesting it.

[Sometimes she wished she had just left well enough alone and not delved too deeply past that. Of course, she'd then be beating herself up for not asking and wondering about everything. Lose-lose, either way.]

[wolfuncaged]

[He gives a soft huff that's almost a laugh. ]

Yes, well. Kirk will do things like that.

[bryces_pup]

So I've noticed.

[And here she begins to step into shakier territory.]

He also told me you two talked about things?

[wolfuncaged]

[Here we go. The humour in his tone quickly vanishes. ]

Yes. We did.

[He's not going to make this easy for you, Riona. ]

[bryces_pup]

[A stab of dread goes through her. If he's already getting defensive, that's not a good sign.]

Well, despite how you, ah, opened with that conversation, I'm glad you found it in yourself to confront it. I know that couldn't have been easy.

[Baby steps here. She doesn't want to dive into the deep end just yet.]

[wolfuncaged]

[It's not a good sign at all. ]

It was not. But I am glad I did. I felt...better for it. Lighter.

[bryces_pup]

Good, I'm glad. [Another baby step.] Kirk said it went well, and things were going to... move forward?

[wolfuncaged]

[H lets out a frustrated sigh.]

Just ask me outright, instead of dancing around it.

[bryces_pup]

[Sigh.]

I just wanted to make sure Marian was okay with everything. Kirk said he didn't know if she knew.

[wolfuncaged]

[He knew he had to face this eventually. This...is not going to go down well, and he knows she has every right to be angry at him. ]

I...have not spoken with her yet.

[bryces_pup]

[The shock isn't as severe as she thought it might be. Whether it's a result of having braced herself for the possibility or that she simply knew it was coming, she couldn't say. Still, Riona closes her eyes, gritting her teeth to hold back a harsh reply.

Breathe. Court taught her to reign in her temper better, for the most part.

To her knowledge, Kirk and Fenris just talked. Okay, and probably smooched, let's be realistic. Assuming anything more would be groundless.]

Fenris. You need to talk to her before things go any further. It's not great what you did, but you're not past the point of no return.

[wolfuncaged]

[Haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. Oh, he so is. He so very, very is. But he is going to hedge around that as much as he can. ]

I am well aware of that fact, thank you.

I will talk to her soon. She deserves that much.

[He doesn't know where it will go, nowhere good but it's better than where they're at. ]

[bryces_pup]

Yes, she does. Would have been better if she heard about it before you decided to talk to Kirk, but so long as you didn't go overly far with anything, it's not all horrible. Talking about it and, I don't know, a couple kisses, isn't the end of the world.

[She shakes her head.]

I know it must be nerve racking, and probably it's going to be difficult, but at least she'll appreciate you coming to her about it rather than trying to carry on something behind her back.

[wolfuncaged]

...Hm.

[It's technically not lying if he doesn't affirm it. It's technically not. ]

I know. And I will. It is time she knew, however it inevitably goes. I will do so tonight.

[bryces_pup]

...

[Fenris. Fenris, buddy, please don't tell her you went further than that.]

That is all that happened, right? Just talking and maybe a bit more?

[She should have kept her mouth shut.]

[wolfuncaged]

[Fuck. ]

Don't ask questions you do not want to know the answers to.

[That was...a stupidly hostile way of answering her and he regrets that the second it comes out of his mouth, but it's done so there you go. ]

[bryces_pup]

[Her eyes narrow. Oh no. No no no.]

Fenris, no. You didn't...

[Her shoulders sag.]

Maker's breath, you slept with him?

[wolfuncaged]

[At least he looks guilty. He exhales slowly, rubbing a hand over his face. This...will not end well. ]

Yes.

1/2

[bryces_pup]

[Okay, now that one honestly takes her by surprise. Maybe it's a streak of naivete still left in her, or just her clinging onto some shrapnel of salvaging this. Her conversation with Kirk led her to believe they had just talked and not a whole lot else. Whether because Kirk phrased it deliberately that way, or it was misinterpretation, she couldn't say. And there's little point in trying to figure it out now.

Riona has to get up from her seat and walk away for a few minutes. Exploding on Fenris would solve little, though she's not sure that won't happen, regardless. He might distantly hear a fist slam into a wall. Yup, she's just... a tiny bit mad.]

2/2

[bryces_pup]

[After the slams, it goes quiet for a little bit. Riona's pacing around a bit, trying to calm herself down enough to talk to him without it devolving into shouting. Which is very hard, because that's all she wants to do. Frankly, he'd deserve it, but she knows Fenris. If she starts yelling, he'll shut down. That might happen anyway, but she's not going to make it that easy for him.

When she does sit back down, her fist is bunched up and pressing hard against her knee.]

What happened to you wanting to be a better man for her? That you didn't want to do this to her? Because what you and Kirk did is so monumentally shitty there aren't words. And you've now made that conversation with her five times harder than it had to be.

[wolfuncaged]

[He'd been expecting yelling, honestly. He would not have thought less of her for it. She had every right to be angry. When the dull thud of a fist hitting a wall came, he'd been bracing himself for it.

He's surprised when it doesn't happen. His tone is sharp, but it's not directed at her. It's pointed inward. ]

I am not a better man. I was trying to be, but I'm not. I doubt I'll ever be. And yes I am very aware how shitty it was to do to her. You will get no arguments from me on that.

[It was a shitty thing because he is a shitty person. ]

[bryces_pup]

Oh fuck you.

[Riona grimaces as she says it.]

That came out a bit wrong, but seriously. You don't get to hide behind the "I'm a shitty person and that's what I'll always be so why bother" argument. It won't work on me, because I know you're a good person. I see it in you. What, you think you slip up and you can just give up? Call it a day? Hurt whoever you want in the process? No, you don't. You keep trying and you do your best to make up for the mistakes you made along the way.

[Of course, there's not much bouncing back from this level of awful.]

Maker, I just want to scream at you and you bloody deserve it, but I also get why you did it. Not sure if it makes things better or worse, honestly.

[wolfuncaged]

No. It is well deserved. All of it.

[He's not about to plead innocence here. He knows full well what he's done, and the ramifications of it. It would be easier if she DID just scream and rage at him. She's being reasonable,
and he honestly doesn't know how to handle that.]

I wish you did not see that in me, sometimes. It would be far easier to not try. [His tone suggests he does. Kirk told him to get professional help about this kind of thing, but he is absolutely not bringing that up right now. Even Fenris can tell that would be awful timing. ] I will tell her. Today.

[There's a pause, then, confused: ] ...You do?

[bryces_pup]

[At least he's properly shame-faced about the whole thing. Riona still wants to kick his teeth in, but him copping to it is helping curb that urge. Well, that and being on the other side of a screen.]

Well, too bad. You're not getting off that easy. [That damnable trait of having faith in friends.] Despite what you may think, you're not quite as terrible as you think you are. You're at least going to tell her, even if it's too late to prevent the damage that's been done. And you admitted you did a colossally awful thing. I just really, really fucking hope it's worth the pain you're about to cause her, I really do.

[A part of her doesn't want to think anything is worth what he's about to do to her, but she'd be doubly upset if this all occurred over a fling.]

I think so. I mean, you were torn over feeling like you weren't good enough for her, that you didn't stack up against the Fenris she knows in her Thedas. With Kirk, you don't have that problem. No insecurities, no "is this what her Fenris would do?" That's at least part of it, isn't it? Or am I wrong?